love lost.

why is it so difficult to let go of the people we love, even if they are hurting us? i think its different for everyone, but in my case, i would say fear. there is one person who i know that brings me such security and comfort. when i talk to him, i feel like i can tell him anything and everything. interestingly, rather than bringing stability into my life, i think the relationship causes me to be more unstable. there is mistrust, insecurity or lack of confidence, and jealousy. so whats a girl to do when her best friend and deepest attraction makes he feel like crap, brings out her faults, makes her sensitive to the world when she is known to be the exact opposite. i crave the challenge, the ability to freely express my feelings, but at the same time i know i am hurting myself in the process. do i take the risk and let it all go? is this the beginning of the end, or maybe its a turning point for a new beginning that is good. when do you know if its worth it to let someone go? i fear losing this person and never getting him back. i'm scared of people being gone. stay tuned and find out...